[it's bitter, as defeated as Haru views his posture. the water, cool around his legs, isn't doing much to calm the anticipation (for the worst to come) heating his blood up. he can't stand stand the sound his hard sniffling makes, in the face of Haru's silence]
Good at messing everything up? Yeah, nobody's got me beat there.
[angry, wry humour, the kind Haru might not be so used to, from Rin; remniscent of have you come to laugh to me? and the hundreds of other stupid, asinine things Rin said to hurt himself before Haru could, a year ago]
[(nothing feels worse than regression and loneliness, to Rin. he's had enough of both for a lifetime)]
[he expects Haru to walk away, doesn't bother turning around. rubbing at his eyes stings a bit, from where his hands touched the chlorine puddles at the edge of the pool, but he wants to get rid of all the evidence that he's a colossal failure, as usual]
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[it's bitter, as defeated as Haru views his posture. the water, cool around his legs, isn't doing much to calm the anticipation (for the worst to come) heating his blood up. he can't stand stand the sound his hard sniffling makes, in the face of Haru's silence]
Good at messing everything up? Yeah, nobody's got me beat there.
[angry, wry humour, the kind Haru might not be so used to, from Rin; remniscent of have you come to laugh to me? and the hundreds of other stupid, asinine things Rin said to hurt himself before Haru could, a year ago]
[(nothing feels worse than regression and loneliness, to Rin. he's had enough of both for a lifetime)]
[he expects Haru to walk away, doesn't bother turning around. rubbing at his eyes stings a bit, from where his hands touched the chlorine puddles at the edge of the pool, but he wants to get rid of all the evidence that he's a colossal failure, as usual]