[ entranced as he is with the book, the closeness is a bit of a distraction. it's not distinctively bad, Haru realizes, but he did wonder when he'd get used to having this again. he'd been separated for Rin far longer than he knew him, but he couldn't shake the feeling (--fear, really) that Rin would happen in spurts in his life. they'd make brief contact as if in a relay, and Rin would dive off to someplace else. or someone else.
he contentedly decides that this moment is somewhat precious, then. not that he'd say that aloud. ]
You complain, but you'll eat it anyway. [ that's how he was when it came to him, right? Haru was the same way. he's not sure if the small smile threatening to form is from the atmosphere or the book, but the longer he looks at the picture of the fish, the more difficult it is to fight it. ]
[sometimes, to Rin, it feels like... cheating, to be here. like the scenes in his life in Holly Heights shouldn't have been allowed to be, and wouldn't have happened if everything was normal and they were all home. he'd anticipated being a -- a weirdly aggressive orbiting body of the Iwatobi team, as cautious (and guilty) as he felt about the Samezuka team, as stupid and displaced as he felt about his old relay team. they were all friends, sure, but he never expected it to be like this -- endless summer]
Shut up, I brought you the book for nothing, consider it payment. Unless you got something better.
[the plastic is taken off the strips, and for all his complaining he offers a stick to Haru first. they're older, but he still wants -- everything, from Haru, really. his attention, his friendship, his gratitude, his private smiles and his fired-up glares]
[here, take this, I helped, his eyes lie hopefully]
The one who's complaining should shut up. [ Haru deadpans while turning the page, but then the gesture is caught in his peripheral, effectively drawing his gaze away from the book and over to Rin questioningly. he looks a bit surprised by the offer, and almost mistrusting of it at first, what with the way he keeps glancing back and forth between the stick and Rin's eyes. ]
. . . [ well, Haru is struck with a quick vision of eating it straight off the stick as Rin holds it, which is all kinds of embarrassing and quickly going to be shoved away into a dark corner of his mind. his hand draws up slowly to reach for it. ]
[it takes too long. this is a chronic problem, with Haru -- he's always looking away, turning his chair in a different direction, running from him, wasting time on an inevitable decision Rin's already made twenty minutes (or four years) ago. if Haru had accepted the damn thing normally, maybe the gesture would remain what it was; selfless, thoughtful, maybe even a little sweet, like the way Makoto or Nagisa treat Haru]
[instead, Rin treats Haru like... Rin treats Haru, which means that when Haru finally starts reaching slowly, Rin is already dropping his his head to chomp on the mackerel stick, leaving a huge, obnoxious bite in it]
...
[without lifting his face from the stick, red eyes flicker up again, like he's in disbelief at his own actions. he is a bit, but Haru's reaction -- temporarily take precedence. he'll be embarrassed for himself later, he's always got time for that]
[eventually;]
...Too slow, Nanase.
[the more things change, the more they stay the same]
[ slow and steady wins the race with Nanase -- or in many cases, is so slow that people get tired of waiting and move on ahead and then he doesn't have to participate in the race anymore.
but Rin, as always, disrupts that MO by performing the smallest of actions, inevitably annoying Haru or affecting him in some way that he can't make sense of, since exasperation shouldn't come so fondly and affectionately. they weren't complementary feelings for him, and yet here they were, resurfacing.
he's not surprised, but still disappointed. shrugging his shoulder up a bit, Haru glances away pointedly with disinterest as an irate sigh escapes. ]
I didn't want it anyway. [ IT'S MACKEREL. AND RIN WAS GIVING IT TO YOU. YES YOU DID, HARU. ]
[Rin might not be able to understand Haruka, most of the time, but he can tell when he isn't being truthful -- there's something about him that's clean and bright when he's saying something he means, something that dulls in equal, obvious measure when he isn't. Rin puts the rest of the dried mackerel in his mouth, like a cigarette, and fishes for another stick]
[this one, he holds out more roughly, while his other palm flips upwards in a gesture of surrender. the two movements together are a mixed signal, because that's just how he rolls]
[Rin finds himself snickering stupidly around his mouthful, similar to that nervous, bright giggle he had as a child, but more goofy and less endearing for his having gone through puberty]
[ well, the way Rin teases him only serves to weigh Haru down into an even shier state. he really wishes he hadn't fallen for such an obvious trap, but it was incredibly difficult to say no to mackerel, even if he knew that Rin was probably looking to laugh at his expense. well, giggle at it -- which he does, and which fills Haru with that same "annoyed-fondness" that baffles his senses every time it happens. like some foreign object being introduced to his body. ]
I knew you were going to do that, by the way. [ he glares, making sure he sounds thoroughly unimpressed by Rin's antics. there's an obvious effort to be much quicker in grabbing for that mackerel this time around. ]
[something twists happily in his stomach; Haru suddenly putting in effort, glaring with emotion, responding to his taunting and baiting and prodding and pushing, always gets him stupidly fired up]
Oh? So that was your plan all along, to let me eat your fish?
[a part of him wants to yank the fish back as Haru reaches, but he grinds an internal heel on that bit -- chowing down on his first piece was childish enough, any more immaturity and they'll start babbling in baby-talk and drooling. so Rin lets (lets) Haru take his mackerel, and chews on his own piece. he prefers beef, but fish makes him think of home. it's not so bad, once in a while]
Diabolical. Is my face looking like a surprised fish's?
[ Haru directly meets his eyes as he takes a bite, listening to the (rather obnoxious) sound of their combined chewing -- Rin's through a grin, Haru's through lazy and slow llama-like movements. ]
No.
[ he looks back at the book now, pretending Rin isn't all that interesting. ]
[Rin laughs at that, arm slinging back around Haru's shoulders companionably, like Haru hasn't just insulted him right to his face and pretended to ignore him in favour of a book. Haru can be perplexing as fuck, but he can be perplexingly funny, too. Rin is always caught unawares, by how funny Haru can be, in his weirdness, in his unrelentingly unique view on the world]
[he doesn't understand, but that's one of the reasons he likes Haru so much in the first place. it's maddening, how stupid they are, how stupid their relationship is]
Like I want to look like a box fish! What's so charming about a square head, anyway? Too much chlorine has messed up your eyesight, I think. -- The pipefish is more charming, if anything.
[he doesn't let Haru keep waxing poetic on his now beloved boxfish, flipping to the frankly adorable pipefish]
[informs Haru, because he is in fact a nerd]
They're in the same family as sea horses and sea dragons, so the male carries the eggs when they mate, but they're weirder than that. Some mate for life, and some only mate in like, harem-style fish orgies. [a dumb snicker] They really decide their own love lives, I guess.
[ it is, quite frankly, a bit difficult for Haru to keep up the complete apathy he had prepared on his expression once Rin shows off the pipefish. an attempt is made, sure, but his eyes tell of an instantaneous enamored feeling that is impossible to hide.
even as Rin rattles off stupidly on his fish facts -- his lewd, weird fish facts. though Haru's not too fazed by them. the ocean had its ways, and Haru respected them. even fish orgies. ]
And you would mate for life? [ if you were a pipefish. ]
[Rin is smug and pleased, as he watches Haru's expression; really, he had absolutely no chance -- who could resist a fish as cute as the pipefish? and that's not the only exotic fish in his arsenal, either. of course, he'd flipped through the book one last time the night before to familiarize himself with it, just for an occasion that might arise just like this (where he could show off and be right and maybe beat Haru at something, like who was the bigger jerk)]
[but then of course, Haru throws off all his plans with dumb, embarrassing questions, and Rin gives a startled, nervous laugh]
What are you asking that for? You know it's different with people versus fish, right? Fish don't date, or fall in love, or anything...
[this is embarrassing. he hates Haru. he should have just shown him the most poisonous, creepy looking one, but he'd wanted charming, and now here they are, with Rin explaining the dokidoki facts of life, and how they have nothing to do with Finding Nemo]
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he contentedly decides that this moment is somewhat precious, then. not that he'd say that aloud. ]
You complain, but you'll eat it anyway. [ that's how he was when it came to him, right? Haru was the same way. he's not sure if the small smile threatening to form is from the atmosphere or the book, but the longer he looks at the picture of the fish, the more difficult it is to fight it. ]
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Shut up, I brought you the book for nothing, consider it payment. Unless you got something better.
[the plastic is taken off the strips, and for all his complaining he offers a stick to Haru first. they're older, but he still wants -- everything, from Haru, really. his attention, his friendship, his gratitude, his private smiles and his fired-up glares]
[here, take this, I helped, his eyes lie hopefully]
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. . . [ well, Haru is struck with a quick vision of eating it straight off the stick as Rin holds it, which is all kinds of embarrassing and quickly going to be shoved away into a dark corner of his mind. his hand draws up slowly to reach for it. ]
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[instead, Rin treats Haru like... Rin treats Haru, which means that when Haru finally starts reaching slowly, Rin is already dropping his his head to chomp on the mackerel stick, leaving a huge, obnoxious bite in it]
...
[without lifting his face from the stick, red eyes flicker up again, like he's in disbelief at his own actions. he is a bit, but Haru's reaction -- temporarily take precedence. he'll be embarrassed for himself later, he's always got time for that]
[eventually;]
...Too slow, Nanase.
[the more things change, the more they stay the same]
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but Rin, as always, disrupts that MO by performing the smallest of actions, inevitably annoying Haru or affecting him in some way that he can't make sense of, since exasperation shouldn't come so fondly and affectionately. they weren't complementary feelings for him, and yet here they were, resurfacing.
he's not surprised, but still disappointed. shrugging his shoulder up a bit, Haru glances away pointedly with disinterest as an irate sigh escapes. ]
I didn't want it anyway. [ IT'S MACKEREL. AND RIN WAS GIVING IT TO YOU. YES YOU DID, HARU. ]
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[Rin might not be able to understand Haruka, most of the time, but he can tell when he isn't being truthful -- there's something about him that's clean and bright when he's saying something he means, something that dulls in equal, obvious measure when he isn't. Rin puts the rest of the dried mackerel in his mouth, like a cigarette, and fishes for another stick]
[this one, he holds out more roughly, while his other palm flips upwards in a gesture of surrender. the two movements together are a mixed signal, because that's just how he rolls]
[Rin finds himself snickering stupidly around his mouthful, similar to that nervous, bright giggle he had as a child, but more goofy and less endearing for his having gone through puberty]
Jeez, don't pout. Take it, already.
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I knew you were going to do that, by the way. [ he glares, making sure he sounds thoroughly unimpressed by Rin's antics. there's an obvious effort to be much quicker in grabbing for that mackerel this time around. ]
LOOK AT THAT KING SHITLORD
Oh? So that was your plan all along, to let me eat your fish?
[a part of him wants to yank the fish back as Haru reaches, but he grinds an internal heel on that bit -- chowing down on his first piece was childish enough, any more immaturity and they'll start babbling in baby-talk and drooling. so Rin lets (lets) Haru take his mackerel, and chews on his own piece. he prefers beef, but fish makes him think of home. it's not so bad, once in a while]
Diabolical. Is my face looking like a surprised fish's?
SAME GOES FOR YOU, PISSLORD
No.
[ he looks back at the book now, pretending Rin isn't all that interesting. ]
You don't have its charm at all.
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[he doesn't understand, but that's one of the reasons he likes Haru so much in the first place. it's maddening, how stupid they are, how stupid their relationship is]
Like I want to look like a box fish! What's so charming about a square head, anyway? Too much chlorine has messed up your eyesight, I think. -- The pipefish is more charming, if anything.
[he doesn't let Haru keep waxing poetic on his now beloved boxfish, flipping to the frankly adorable pipefish]
[informs Haru, because he is in fact a nerd]
They're in the same family as sea horses and sea dragons, so the male carries the eggs when they mate, but they're weirder than that. Some mate for life, and some only mate in like, harem-style fish orgies. [a dumb snicker] They really decide their own love lives, I guess.
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even as Rin rattles off stupidly on his fish facts -- his lewd, weird fish facts. though Haru's not too fazed by them. the ocean had its ways, and Haru respected them. even fish orgies. ]
And you would mate for life? [ if you were a pipefish. ]
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[but then of course, Haru throws off all his plans with dumb, embarrassing questions, and Rin gives a startled, nervous laugh]
What are you asking that for? You know it's different with people versus fish, right? Fish don't date, or fall in love, or anything...
[this is embarrassing. he hates Haru. he should have just shown him the most poisonous, creepy looking one, but he'd wanted charming, and now here they are, with Rin explaining the dokidoki facts of life, and how they have nothing to do with Finding Nemo]